It's all going downhill, yet again.

I won't let it take over, though I feel depression is beginning to creep back into my life via my teenage hormones. Though this may seem like something every single teenager may go through, it is more so for me, as I have a little syndrome called PCOS which causes major mood swings and I have slightly strange hormones. My mind is becoming a little intoxicated with overly stressed, depressive thoughts. I think it's all the pressure that's sending me back into that grim world I've only just got myself out of.

I'm really scared of taking on more responsibility that I will most certainly inherit with age, and my life seems to be speeding past. I've wasted my teenage years in my opinion. There's so much more I want to do, and so much I really regret doing, and so much I've wasted my time with.

I'm going to change my appearance. By the summer, I will be the BMI of 22.33 rather than 25. This probably won't make me all that much happier, but I'll still feel a bit more confident. I want to buy some new clothes, and save up some money at the same time.

I am going to try and battle with this beast of a feeling.